Life's Humour

Well, I was reading a friend's blog and noticed that I am kinda afraid of falling into my old routine of being the one who falls for a boy who only likes me as a friend. Yep, this was the reason why I am doing this.

As it turns out, in September '07 my ex asked me for a divorce. I'm cool with that now... to be fair I asked him first in February and then we did the whole marriage counseling bit, but the truth was we just were no longer 'in love' with one another but were merely 'roommates'.

Yep, I am thrown back, once again, onto the label of a singleton. To be more accurate: Divorcée.

Let's just talk about that for a bit. See, I had no idea of how many have been through a divorce until I started sharing that I was getting one. Being in the whole Marriage camp I just thought there weren't many divorced people out there. It was this sort of disease that happened to people once in awhile but they basically disappeared or left the city when something like 'divorce' came over their household. Sure, we saw single people everywhere applying for Marriage camp, but not many divorced people. In the end, being part of Marriage camp was what everyone wanted... right?

Well, now that I've left that place I realize that for me, I am much happier. Especially since I never knew what it was like to live on my own. So, here I am dealing with a budget just on my salary (well, he does help me with half of the rent for now), going to school, finding a job, figuring out what it is I like and doing things that I am interested in is totally rewarding and fulfilling.

Look, I felt that I had to get married at 21 so that I could leave my household. My parents were just too overbearing and I literally was dying slowly. My ex and I both realized that we got together for a reason and are now separating because we made each other better people up to a point and the best thing to do now is move on. It's uncommon (so I hear from fellow Divorcée's) to actually be on good terms with the ex and to have the whole proceeding go so smoothly.

I can't complain. He's still one of my buds and we help each other out whenever possible, be it moral or monetary support.

Soooo.... that's just a little background with my ex. Now, how did I get to talking about that?

Oh yeah, the boy who's a friend but maybe more... Look, it's been 7 months and I wasn't looking for this guy. If anything I tried my damnedest to stay away from him but something happened...
Let me just say, he called me first! Sure it was an outreach call, he needed support for a family problem and at first I was cool with this and was totally there for him. Then, through time, I noticed that these conversations became 'getting to know you' convos and I found myself thinking about him more and more when I wasn't talking with him. I found myself looking forward to seeing him, taking every opportunity available to be with him in person.

Goodness! Something was happening to me. Now, mind you, I always knew I had a crush on him even before I was getting divorced. That is why I stayed away from him! But, the universe always found a way to bring us back together. Well, great. The universe also seems to have some sick sense of humor because just as soon as things start to look somewhat promising (remember that family trouble?) he needs to go back home. Home is 7 hours away!!! Can you believe that?

He has a new job there for the mean time because he doesn't know how long he will have to stay there and now we only have had a couple of weird phone convos and no person to person contact. Great. What will happen next? Beats me. Right now I am just learning to be in the moment and not to think of him too much... ha! So much for that one. Look at me. I started a blog to vent about that one thing.

Don't get me wrong, I know there's a lot more to life to vent about. It's just that right now that seems to be my number one topic on my mind. Ahhh... almost time to leave work. Yay!