Optimism Spilleth Over

Something that I have noticed about my writing. It tends to be on the optimistic side. I guess this is just a part of my character but I really do wonder at times. If this is how I'm supposed to look at life then it must definitely be a good life. Quick inventory... ummm... aha uhuh aha ... I can't complain. It could definitely be much worse than what it is now. See, there goes that optimism once again!

The reason I started thinking about this was because of my ex and I - our relationship. It is such a good relationship that he is coming down next month and will be staying with me for a couple of days. Sure, he's coming down for a court thing that we both must attend, but the good part is we talked it over and are at peace with this. All we want is for the whole process to be over and done with.

Yes, I am a bit discombobulated (cool word!) with the whole aspect of having him stay at my place. Because it is no longer 'ours' but now is 'mine'. Right away I thought about how I look, what I can do to the place to fix it up, how can I show him in 'x' # of ways of how different I am?

That's what it comes down to. Proving to him that I am indeed better off on my own and that his request for a divorce was really a stepping stone for me to become a better person.

Yes, we are on good terms. But there's this part of me that wants to prove to him that he was indeed stifling me and not the other way around.

Truth is we were stifling each other. We both have found better things in life because we were more open to pursuing what makes us happy. Yes, we are both better people now and that's why we can talk with one another with such love and kindness.

Guess being optimistic isn't such a curse if anything it's a godsend.