Moments

So, this is where I'm at. Sitting at a desk temping for this department that doesn't give me much work. Sitting at a desk where I cannot see the light of the day. Sitting here wondering why I had to let it go on for so long, wandering from office to office working for the money and not working in something that makes me happy.

And you know what? I am so glad that I'm in freefall. Sooo happy to be on course to a new life. I have my moments where time goes by quickly and others where it's absolutely downright dragging. During one of those moments (the dragging) today I found myself thinking of Mr. Blue Eyes.

I felt this calm and serenity come over me and I thought: Just knowing that you are alive and exist in the world is enough to get me through anything. Knowing that some day soon I will see you again, makes anything between now and then worth living. Just one second closer to having you in front of me. One second closer to be able to smell you once again. One second closer to having your eyes jump into mine. One second closer to feeling you pressed against me in an embrace. Just one second closer makes life's ups and downs worth living.

Oh yes, that was a nice thought that makes any moment in life worth living.